bad dreams

last night i had a bad dreams for the second time, sobrang weird and nakakatakot.
ang eksena ay I was enjoying watching movie in a theater and may biglang pinasok na kabaong sa loob ng sinehan, As in kabaong, so syempre naloka lahat ng tao sa sinehan, bakit ipapasok ang kabaong sa loob ng sinehan? di ba? then another scene was nasa isang bahay ako na hindi ko alam kung kanino, while I am cooking a meal para sa dalawang kaibigan ng ex-lover ko, inutusan ako nung isa na tawagan yung ex ko sa phone but, sabi ko later na lang, then biglang may pinasok na kabaong na naman sa house kung saan nagluluto ako, nagulat ako and nag panic, nakita ko yung nasa kabaong isang matandang lalaki na hindi ko kakilala may isang malaking heart shape na dahon na naka sapin sa leeg nya, pero before ako magsalita pinigilan ako nung isa na don't ask and point your finger in the coffin. He just told me dahon daw ng Magno yun. I dont understand and since I know I am only dreaming I force myself to wake up. Clear pa sa isip ko yung mukha nung nasa coffin. honestly, hindi ko talaga sya kilala and first time ko sya nakita.

here in the office I checked the meaning of my dreams:

dreammoods.com

Movie Theater
To dream that you are in a movie theater, indicates that you are attempting to protect yourself from your emotions and/or actions. Viewing them on a movie screen projects them onto another person and thus makes those feelings/actions distant . You may be protecting yourself from experiencing them

Coffin
To see a coffin in your dream, symbolizes the womb. It also signifies your thoughts and fears of death. If the coffin is empty, then it suggests that you are having some irreconcilable differences. Alternatively, the coffin represents ideas and habits that you are no longer of use and can be buried.

To see a body in a coffin, signifies that you are going through a period of depression. You may feel confined, restricted and that you are lacking personal freedom. There may be a dead or decaying situation or issue in your life that needs to be addressed. It is time to end this situation or relationship.

Leaves
To see leaves in your dream, signifies new found happiness and improvements in various aspects of your life. It is symbolic of fertility, growth and openness. Alternatively, leaves represent a passage of time. Depending on the color and type of leaf, the dream could be highlighting a certain period of time. The leaves may also be a metaphor suggesting to "leave" me alone.

To see brown or withered leaves in your dream, signifies fallen hopes, despair, sadness and loss. If you are sweeping or raking leaves, then it represents the end of a project, relationship or situation. It also signifies experience.

If anyone knows how to interpret this kindly message, thank you.

Sony PSP

I just won a Sony PSP last Sunday afternoon at SM SouthMall, actually meron silang event, launching ng WiFi ng buong mall. I was invited by a friend to accompany him on the said event. He asked me to register coz they have a raffle on the later part of the event. I wasn't expecting anything because I know hindi ako swerte sa mga ganitong klaseng raffle, as in never in whole life na nanalo ako sa raffle. Ay, meron pala sa ending when I was in grade 5. hehehe...
I was not nervous or anything wala din ako naramdaman na kaba na ako mabubunot sa raffle.
Luckily ako nga ang winner, sarap ng feeling overwhelming, pakiramdaman ko napakalaki ng premyo na nakuha ko. May pasalubong na din ako sa mga pamangkin ko kse they had been asking me to buy them a PSP.

special screening

Last night July 30, 2009 at Robinson's Galleria held the special screening of Little Boy Big Boy. Thanks to the writer Mr. Lex Bonife for the ticket I was able to watch the movie. Honestly the movie was great each and one of us can relate to the story. Actually I found myself crying in the middle of the movie. The directions was good Mr. J. Altarejos and hope we all support this movie. Keep it Up guys!

big boy premiere

Thanks for your interest in Big Boy

You get one free invite to the premiere. Just show up around 630pm at Galleria Cinema 5, Jul 30.

And text me at *********** on that day. thanks!

Lex Bonife
Screenwriter & Yoga Teacher

"The gay man is an affirmation of the complexity of the human being" (Lex Bonife)



_ Thank you Lex for the free invite, sino din sa inyo ang manonood ng premiere night. Please message me here para naman may kasama din ako manood.

the wedding

kasal ni charlie

kasal ni Albert Dalawa sa mga officemates ko ang kinasal this July '09 at syempre present ako para hindi naman sila magtampo. Yung una sa Vista Verde Country Club Cainta yung reception and yung pangalawa sa Lake Villa Resort Binangonan naman ang reception. Congrats and Best Wishes sa inyo. Live Happy and enjoy your married life.

bad mood

wala ako sa mood for the past 3 weeks. bumalik yung dati kong habit, 3am na ako natutulog ubos na din ang valium ko kelangan ko pa ulit magpa-reseta. hay...........
lahat ng bagay na nangyayari sa akin puro mali, mga hindi inaasahang gulo.
hindi sumasang-ayon ang panahon sa desisyon ko. lahat hindi tugma.

Job offer

It been quite a while since my last post, wala me sa mood magsulat as in everyday parang palaging may aberya. Madalas akong malungkot lalo na kapag bago matulog, napakarami kong iniisip at hindi ko maintindihan sarili ko kaya heto todo na naman eyebags ko sa laki at nangingitim kakapuyat. Meron me isang bagay na hindi ko mapagdesisyonan kung itutuloy ko ba or hindi. Ito yung pag aabroad noong Holy Week when I was in Bataan, may tumawag sa cp ko si Mr. Othman from Saudi, he told me that he got my application from a talent pool sa net. He conducted the interview thru phone and he's now hiring me for Executive Secretary position. At first natuwa ako, pero nung napag-isip isip ko parang natatakot yata ako.
Before when I was still in college, nauso yung mga technician sa Taiwan, siguro mga nakatatlong apply ako hindi ako makapasa-pasa sa final interview. Pero kung tutuusin mas naniniwala ako na qualified ako compared dun sa mga natanggap. May offer sa akin sa Saipan, ayaw naman ng mommy ko so wala din ako nagawa. Nag-aapply din ako as Front Desk Officer sa Fairmont Hotel ng Dubai, nag final interview kami sa Oakwood Hotel sa Makati and ang nag-interview sa akin yung Operations manager ng Hotel pumunta pa dito sa Pinas. Unfortunately hindi na naman ako natanggap. Nagpunta din ako sa POEA nag-apply, nakalimutan ko na kung anong work yun and after a year sumulat sila sa akin pinag-rereport para sa final submission ng requirements and interview na naman. Ito naman yung mga panahon na wala na akong gana mag-abroad sa mga failures and rejections na natanggap ko. Last year sabi ko sa sarili ko susunod ako dun sa dati kong officemate na nasa Abu Dhabi ngayon, bago matapos yung taon inayos ko yung transcript of records ko pina authenticate ko, red ribbon kung tawagin, renew ng passport, renew ng NBI and apply for Driver's License. Nag-ipon din ako ng konting pera and nag loan ako sa bank ng 60K para sa pamasahe and visa. Kung kelan ready na ako, eto naman ang Global Recession walang patumanggang tanggalan sa trabaho at unti-unti nagsasara yung mga opisina sa Abu Dhabi according dun sa dati kong officemate. So, kung ganun na nga ayokong mag take ng risk kse siguradong talo ako dito, Sabi nya baka mahirapan ako maghanap ng trabaho ang pag nag expire yung tourist visa ko kelangan mag-exit sa neighboring country so another gastos na naman and baka mapunta lang sa wala yung perang inutang ko. Buti na lang pwede ko pang revoke yung approved loan ko sa bank. pumayag naman sila kase may 2 month period na allowance silang binigay sa akin. Tapos ngayon yung recent na trabaho papunta naman ng Dammam, Saudi Arabia, yes gusto ko pero parang aatras yata ako, hindi na ganon kalakas loob ko compared noong mas bata pa ako. Gusto kong subukan pero nagdadalawang isip ako na baka may problema na naman na pwedeng maging dahilan sa di ko pag-alis. Natatakot ako sa rejection. I still don't know kung itutuloy ko pa ito, sa ngayon meron na akong request for medical exam sa SM Lazo clinic. Ewan hindi ko maintindihan sarili ko.